dreams

after taking the kids to school came home to sleep for an hour, actually slept for two. with bandit by my side. my mind went to its usual state- wild. my lack of sleep affects my dreams and to find that state of rest opens the portal.

dreams of picking up the kids from school early and bringing them to mary & angie's home to find it filled with kids and adults, a sort of day care party, parents drinking beer at 10 in the morning while they chat with fellow parents. the children joined the festivities, i stay aside. in a few minutes i gather my children to get them back to school only to find that children are being released for the day. as im going through the crowd slowly i come to a stop. a lady hair is blowing near my face and before my thought is over that it seems as my sisters hair, she turns. yes, it is my almonds. with her sunshades and her beautiful smile, telling me she came to pick the kids up.

at some other point i dream i'm somewhere, walking or standing, just somewhere; something about a girl. she doesnt belong here. her mother is a bit angry and tells me she has to go to houston. i reply by letting her know i'm from there. i'm sitting in a back row of a plane chit chatting with a female, not sure if it is the same lady or not. the plane starts going and i begin to freak out. yelling to stop the plane, that i'm not supposed to go to back. i didnt even have a boarding pass or was checked for anything, no clothes packed even. a lady in the front get iritated, stands up, asks who's making all the noise. i yell to her its me. she walks up. alas, my lover is sitting next to me. we're holding hands. the lady's mood changes. asks us about us. we're smiling, speaking. she asks him his age, she guesses he's 28, we giggle and he says thank you but he's actually a little older. she gives me a ring. small and simple yet quite pretty. silver ring which ends dont meet but split to go around holding a pearl. i goes on my right ring finger.

all of a sudden my lover and i are no longer on the plane but we're driving up a freeway, almost speeding. look to my left coming up to some sort of investigation. i see my glasses thrown on the floor, with one of the handles broken off. there was something else of mine which at this point i cant remember. i told him we needed to go back there, for some reason my stuff was there; whatever had occured.

another dream- in some type of store or office, it's my first day there. it looks familiar, i've been there before. yet, i feel uneasy, solem. i speak with a man, he explains to me what it was and i remember. he's one of the richest guys there, he's a pusher, in sales that is. i sit at a table, another sits with me. i have a bowl of cereal in front of me but need to get up for something in my locker. another new girl joins me, we see a room. we wander in wondering what it is. it turns out just to be a boys locker room. but the colors of the walls are painted nice shades of oranges. we start back to the table when i noticed my cereal is spilled over to the floor. an older lady nagging and complaining. i explain to her that i didnt make the mess but she refuses to listen. she's telling me something but i cant understand the meaning. i'm surrounded by white cloth it's moving around rapidly, some what scary, she's creating it. i'm hearing music in the background, its faint. all of a sudden i see my lover's face smiling above me as if he's been hiding behind me. and says something like ' i'll always be with you'. i wake up almost crying and short of breath.