i looked at the pictures on the wall. people i dont know. then i saw his face. aww so handsome. he's smiling looking off somewhere. oh he's in a tux. ohhhh... she's next to him. in her white dress. its a picture from their wedding. that's why he didnt want me to look at those pictures. it's ok, just part of his life.

i let the shower fall on my face the next morning to hide the tears.

funny how emotions work.

but he's mine now and for many tomorrows. we're so happy when we're together. just a few days at a time. once a month.

strange how emotions grow.

and my brother falling in love with a girl my lover used to date. i'm ok with it. he's happy and that's what matters. what i'm annoyed with is my lover not telling me. what does that mean in the picture.? the thought that keeps coming is what else has he not told me.?

anyhow. that's that.

unstable emotions.